The party as a rather stuffy society: how to act and pretend to know how to relax and have fun? I thought at the time it was attractive, mainly because of coincidence and the persons seemed like they had a sense of humour, but when they looked so put out, I realised that I hadn’t had the reaction which they had expected and wanted. Expectation invariably disappoints. In some ways I learnt this. And in some ways I didn’t and still I keep learning different versions of it. I have a tendency to think people are more flexible than they are. I have had that experience of belonging within myself when deciding I don’t belong in my surroundings. Some people take exception to it, as though it's not allowed to feel comfortable with sole being. That attitude which others have, encourages my own. Funny how things don't work.